The hot Long Island sun pokes fingers into sandy ground, stirs dust in my young throat as I kick high the swing, hit bottom on the downward fly. White jelly bread rolls around my hungry tongue, washed with purple kool-aid. I grow where green grass won’t, nourished on margarine, wonder baked in bread, Saturday morning cartoons, the buzz of test patterns in my head. Father builds a shed beneath the staircase, packs in rakes and brooms, bikes and wasps and whispered things that hang from nail hooks shredded like cardboard Halloween skeletons that glow in the dark. Honey- suckle with fuchsia hearts grows on my best friend’s vines. We pluck them to suck the sweetness free, rub the juice into our skin, run with green feet beneath sprinklers, later, sip ice tea, nibble toast thick with butter, play with candy beads and lipstick, then practice- kiss our arms, grape and tangerine. Miramar No. 8 2019